30 day challenge...thanks Johnsons :)

Hello friends!! I am currently sitting at home just leaving work and relaxing! I was reading a friends blog and saw she was doing a 30 day challenge so writing blogs. I love to write and read other people's blogs, so I figured I would do it to see if there are actually 30 things I can honestly write about so here goes....I have posted the challenge and the next blog will be number 1! Have fun reading!!

Future Continues......

Well, I went on another interview today....that makes like number 20 since summer....maybe?! I hope one of these eventually pays off....I just want some experience and someone who knows I love my job and will do it well and to the best of my ability! I am sitting here break from work and just looking at facebook and just how sad some people really have it. Tim and I have definitely had our low points lately, but it really has made us stronger and I know we will come out fighting! Neither one of us is working in our "career" fields....at least his school was paid for!! So, discouragement is nothing new in our house....I guess at this point we just expect it!! I have also seen where there are many friends who have ended or ending their journey with their "soulmate". I wish I could go to a conference and speak to ladies who are engaged or want to be engaged and tell them how marriage really is. It is awesome!!! I have the best husband ever who works so hard to support us, financially, emotionally, and physically! It is challenging because there isnt enough time to do everything you would like with your spouse. Their are obstacles that just pop up and you cannot be prepared for, but take it head on and fight for what you have. Marriage is tiring, emotional, happy, blessed, etc.... It really does take work.....if you have never lived with another person especially of opposite sex and you are not determined to work at it....you will fail!!! It takes patience, guidance, listening, communicating, etc.....to make things work!! God is the number one reason why Tim and I have been close and brought together!! God connects us and I feel him in us every day! He is the reason we are still going strong and will continue for the rest of our lives!! I am sooo lucky to have a Godly husband because most people dont and that is a hard thing to swallow!! So just remember on your hardest days, I have been there...I prolly know how you feel, and I prolly know the person that you are mad at the most........yourself!!! I just wanted to take the time to tell you...life can never get that bad! It will get better and God has a plan for you!! Thank you for reading my blog! Peace out!

God's Love

Hey guys! Well as I sit here on the close of 9/11/11, the 10 year anniversary, I was thinking about all of the things I am soo thankful for. Most of all, God's love and grace. I cannot believe he sent his son to die on a cross for ME!! Little ole me, the one who sins daily, disappoints daily, and never says enough thank you's or prayers!! I just want to say thank you for all the military, police, firefighters, rescue squad, ambulance responders, hospital personel etc. I cannot imagine what these people went through on 9/11! It is the most horrific day of my lifetime and I am so thankful and lucky to be alive and be able to hold my family members and tell them I love them one more day! We are not promised tomorrow, so do it daily!! I just sit here in awe of all the things I should be thankful for. A Chrisitan raising, being saved by my Lord Jesus Christ, my husband, my parents, brother and sister, my family who has given me words of encouragement and prayers! My church family, my GA's that weekly humble me more by what they share and their walk with Christ. Just be thankful! God's love is so abundant! Take hold of it today!! If you have any questions on how to inherit heaven or Christ, please ask!!! Thanks guys! Love you all...and please remember to keep me in your prayers!! I very hopeful that soon something will come along for me and I will be thankful, but until then I am very content and happy with where I am in my life!!

When Does Life Start??

Well, I am feeling kinda disconnected tonight as I sit here and looking at my friends' blogs and pics. I am so happy for them and how things are going in their lives. I just feel that something is not right in mine. I want to be in a classroom of kids sooo bad!! I am just struggling with this soo bad! I understand you have to start somewhere, but that somewhere for me is a lot different than some people. Tim just got a job, so it is not like a could take a chance with a job that paid nothing. I have a job currently, but I have no clue what it will turn into, so I just have to be patient. I am enjoying working instead of being at home, but I just do not know when my break will be. I also wish Tim could get his dream radio job!! I do not know how some people are so lucky and get everything they want. Then there are people like me and Tim who have to struggle to just get a little bit, and still struggle more to get half of what we want. I am grateful for everything we have, but I am just waiting for "life" to start!!! I am still hopeful and looking, so maybe now that I have something else to keep me content, I can delve into other things I love and am passionate about!! Thanks for reading my blog! ADIOS!

Something Old, Something New

Well, I have been a little down lately, but we were able to head to the beach this last weekend and have some fun with some really great friends. I wish I could find a job teaching somewhere....I dont even really care where anymore. I have tried every kind of school as well. It is sad to see one of my friends decide to go into law because he knows it is too tough to get a teaching job. It is just crazy!! Well other than the same ole same ole...everything is great! My bday is tomorrow..I will be 24!!! YEHAW! Then our anniversary is on the 17th so maybe we will get to go somewhere special and spend some time! Thanks for reading my blogs and keeping up with us!! :)

A lot to take in......please let me succeed!

Well....my night started off with me watching Secret Life of an American Teenager....wow! All I can say is I am terrified to get pregnant and try to carry a child! I would be absolutely devastated if that ever happened to me......a stillbirth......wow! I just had all these feeling run through me and it was scary. I know its just a TV show but this stuff really happens in people's lives everyday and no one stops to think about them! Then, I have the constant "dont have a job" voice running through my head. I check Teach In Alabama about 20 times a day....and I am not exaggerating! I am sooo worried that I am not going to get a lucky break like some people. I just do not know what I am doing wrong....maybe my interview today was impressive and made me stand out!!! I just keep praying and hoping something will come along. I know its early in the summer and they are still trying to figure out where everyone is going to be next year...but I still worry!! I am lucky to be married to an amazing guy who would do anything for me!! I caught myself staring at him today and looking at his ring....I just cannot believe it! I am lucky enough to be married to him. Still almost a year later, its just unbelievable. Marriage is the best ever! Now I just need that awesome teaching job to make it all complete :) Thanks for reading my life...love you guys...continue praying!

Is It My Turn?

Well, I am trying not to freak out, but I kinda am! I know people are telling me not to that God will take care of me....but is it my turn yet??? I have been putting all my energy and money into these applications I am sending out...hello??!! 1.80??!! Doesnt that look like I am trying here??!! I am asking for interviews, calling and not getting anyone.....someone please help me!! Tell me what to do....i wish I had connections in the education world, but I do not! I am just trying my best to stand out somehow and even applying to Christian schools...maybe something will come by the end of the summer!! I hope!!! I sent my stuff off today for Baldwin County.....Bay Minette area....man that would be awesome! Dont know how we would get there or survive for the first couple of months, but im sure we would be okay! I just need a sign or something to tell me what to do...I keep getting discouraged....and now my hubby's dream looks like its going to get shot down yet again :/ can we not get our dreams to come true?!! I mean I dont understand what we have done......but I know i need patience!! Please pray for us as we go through this difficult time.....its hard to sit and watch everything we have depend on day to day what happens!! I just want something!! When will our economy get better??? The presidential election could change all of this if people would vote!!! GO VOTE!! unless you want this same stuff to go on for the next 4 years again!! I pray God puts his hand on me and gives me patience and make me humble of what I have!!!