A lot to take in......please let me succeed!

Well....my night started off with me watching Secret Life of an American Teenager....wow! All I can say is I am terrified to get pregnant and try to carry a child! I would be absolutely devastated if that ever happened to me......a stillbirth......wow! I just had all these feeling run through me and it was scary. I know its just a TV show but this stuff really happens in people's lives everyday and no one stops to think about them! Then, I have the constant "dont have a job" voice running through my head. I check Teach In Alabama about 20 times a day....and I am not exaggerating! I am sooo worried that I am not going to get a lucky break like some people. I just do not know what I am doing wrong....maybe my interview today was impressive and made me stand out!!! I just keep praying and hoping something will come along. I know its early in the summer and they are still trying to figure out where everyone is going to be next year...but I still worry!! I am lucky to be married to an amazing guy who would do anything for me!! I caught myself staring at him today and looking at his ring....I just cannot believe it! I am lucky enough to be married to him. Still almost a year later, its just unbelievable. Marriage is the best ever! Now I just need that awesome teaching job to make it all complete :) Thanks for reading my life...love you guys...continue praying!