A lot to take in......please let me succeed!

Well....my night started off with me watching Secret Life of an American Teenager....wow! All I can say is I am terrified to get pregnant and try to carry a child! I would be absolutely devastated if that ever happened to me......a stillbirth......wow! I just had all these feeling run through me and it was scary. I know its just a TV show but this stuff really happens in people's lives everyday and no one stops to think about them! Then, I have the constant "dont have a job" voice running through my head. I check Teach In Alabama about 20 times a day....and I am not exaggerating! I am sooo worried that I am not going to get a lucky break like some people. I just do not know what I am doing wrong....maybe my interview today was impressive and made me stand out!!! I just keep praying and hoping something will come along. I know its early in the summer and they are still trying to figure out where everyone is going to be next year...but I still worry!! I am lucky to be married to an amazing guy who would do anything for me!! I caught myself staring at him today and looking at his ring....I just cannot believe it! I am lucky enough to be married to him. Still almost a year later, its just unbelievable. Marriage is the best ever! Now I just need that awesome teaching job to make it all complete :) Thanks for reading my life...love you guys...continue praying!

Is It My Turn?

Well, I am trying not to freak out, but I kinda am! I know people are telling me not to that God will take care of me....but is it my turn yet??? I have been putting all my energy and money into these applications I am sending out...hello??!! 1.80??!! Doesnt that look like I am trying here??!! I am asking for interviews, calling and not getting anyone.....someone please help me!! Tell me what to do....i wish I had connections in the education world, but I do not! I am just trying my best to stand out somehow and even applying to Christian schools...maybe something will come by the end of the summer!! I hope!!! I sent my stuff off today for Baldwin County.....Bay Minette area....man that would be awesome! Dont know how we would get there or survive for the first couple of months, but im sure we would be okay! I just need a sign or something to tell me what to do...I keep getting discouraged....and now my hubby's dream looks like its going to get shot down yet again :/ can we not get our dreams to come true?!! I mean I dont understand what we have done......but I know i need patience!! Please pray for us as we go through this difficult time.....its hard to sit and watch everything we have depend on day to day what happens!! I just want something!! When will our economy get better??? The presidential election could change all of this if people would vote!!! GO VOTE!! unless you want this same stuff to go on for the next 4 years again!! I pray God puts his hand on me and gives me patience and make me humble of what I have!!!