Well, this week has gone by sooo slow!! I thought it would never be the weekend. Tim worked almost every night until 10, 12, 2 am in the morning busting his tail!!! I never got to see him or talk to him except on the phone....it was starting to become annoying and I was getting frustrated quickly!! Well last night I finally got to spend time with him and go out to eat!! I was soooo excited!! Until the bad news came....I told him I had been trying to call him on his business phone, but he told me that was why....he no longer had his work phone. The company took it back and he was no longer going back there. I started squaling.....how could this happen to us again in the last 6 months!! I thought this would last a little longer....for those of you that dont know...Tim was also let go at the beginning of the year from his computer job that he had for the whole time we have been together...4 years!! I couldnt take it that night and I couldnt last night....I have been stressed and freaking out because now neither of us have jobs ( mine ends Friday) and I hate not knowing whats going to happen. I feel like I am being punished for something or not relying on God enough like I say I am going to!! I just need prayers so bad!! I cannot handle this on my own and just have to have faith that God will take care of us....the sad part is I hate to bother him because I know of all the people that are really depending on him right now, but I know he told us in the Bible that that is what he wants us to do...is rely on him and not lean on our own understanding!!! He is going to be beside us forever holding our hand!! Well....I am going to the tanning bed with mom....I will add more later!! ok so im back now...and apparently still here...either im not right with God...which is not it...or someone was wrong! DUH!!! anyways, yesterday was pretty hard! I dont think people realize that teachers only get paid once a month and its not a lot...especially for substitutes!!! So, I just hope I can get one of these teaching jobs I have applied for...which there are tons of us and now tons more just graduated that are all trying to get in there.....I am just worried...what if I go another year without a job??? I dont think I can take rejection more!!! I guess im going to get on my knees and pray with everything in me!! I know I have let God down many times and everyday!! I am so sorry for being a backsliden Christian and not showing others how I am supposed to live!! I know something needs to change!!! Thanks so much for everyone giving me encouragment and advice!! I hope things turn around...and who knows maybe God is setting Tim up to get his dream radio job...on the beach!! hehe i wish!! Thanks for reading! Deuces!