When Does Life Start??

Well, I am feeling kinda disconnected tonight as I sit here and looking at my friends' blogs and pics. I am so happy for them and how things are going in their lives. I just feel that something is not right in mine. I want to be in a classroom of kids sooo bad!! I am just struggling with this soo bad! I understand you have to start somewhere, but that somewhere for me is a lot different than some people. Tim just got a job, so it is not like a could take a chance with a job that paid nothing. I have a job currently, but I have no clue what it will turn into, so I just have to be patient. I am enjoying working instead of being at home, but I just do not know when my break will be. I also wish Tim could get his dream radio job!! I do not know how some people are so lucky and get everything they want. Then there are people like me and Tim who have to struggle to just get a little bit, and still struggle more to get half of what we want. I am grateful for everything we have, but I am just waiting for "life" to start!!! I am still hopeful and looking, so maybe now that I have something else to keep me content, I can delve into other things I love and am passionate about!! Thanks for reading my blog! ADIOS!